note to self (aka:captain's log: )
never assume you are in the clear. because when you are wrong and those hard feelings hit you, it will feel that much worse because of your arrogance. you know what happens when you assume.....

my roommates are very understanding though. people surprise me. I just wish I could surprise me and really be in the clear. but that would not be fair to my heart and to all the things I need to learn right now. So I will feel these feelings and keep right on going.