two steps forward, one step back.....or is it vice versa?

One thing that new love (and long-lasting old love too) is for me, if nothing else, is an addiction. So when something ends, I forget that I am dealing with withdrawal and addiction to another person and to a way of life that had come to incorporate, perhaps even encapsulate, that person. I take disappointment so hard and especially when someone once close to me becomes someone to whom I no longer have access. More appropriately, someone to whom I should not access for a while. For me, yet another break-up pushes some of my most vulnerable buttons, but I am giving myself sixty days for getting back to where I was. Sixty days of detox, sixty days of self-love, sixty days of grace.

"Slowly Surely" (Jill Scott)

Slowly surely,
I walk away from
that old desperate and dazed love
caught up in the maze of love
the crazy craze of love
thought it was good
thought it was real
thought it was
but it wasn't love

I just don't know
Where i should go
So
Slowly surely
I walk away from
self-serving
undeserving
constantly hurting me love
deserting me love
you said, I said, we said
but

Slowly surely
I walk away from
confusing love
misusing love
abusing love
this can't be

Slowly surely
I walk away from
self serving
undeserving
constantly hurting me love

I just don't know
where I should go
No
I just don't know
know, know, know
Where I should go
so

Slowly surely
I walk away from
that old desperate and dazed love
caught up in the maze of love
the crazy craze of love

thought it was good
thought it was real
thought it was
but it wasn't love

I just don't know where to go
So

Slowly surely
I walk away from
I walk away from
Slowly surely
I walk away from love
Oh
slowlyy, surely one step at a time
but surely
I will pass the old love aside
and love me
slowly,
surely I walk away from
slowly surely I walk away from desperating love
caught up in the maze love
crazy crazy craze of love
slowly surely, I walk away from [repeat 5 times]
Slooooooowly Suuuuuuurely, slowly surely